Pressure

It has been two months now since I entered UP. I thought life here would just be the same as Ateneo. Guess I was wrong. It was way beyond Ateneo. Most of the upperclassmen in the architecture program claim that as a freshman, we wouldn't be cramming too much. Boo... they're wrong. We've already been experiencing sleepless nights, cracking our heads to finish our design plates. Most of my classmates wouldn't even take a bath or have breakfast before going to our first class.

I've never thought that I would be experiencing this kind of pressure. I may be complaining, yet who would even want to experience it? I'll be darned if someone would walk right up to me this instant, slap in the face, and say that s/he likes the pressure s/he experiences. Come to think of it, who would even want to have a professor, who claims that he is the seventh most intelligent person in the world (fifth in Asia)? How about having a professor who demands too much, expecting fresh high school graduates to think like a college student instantly? These professors may be teaching general education courses, yet who would even want to see a grade of 4.0, 5.0, INC, or DRP in their report cards? I don't. In Ateneo, I never had any failing marks in my report card. It was only here in UP that I experience such disappointment.

Sometimes, I get this feeling that architecture isn't the right course for me. Imagine that I have to give up sleeping just to finish all my plates, even if I was told by my doctor to have at least eight hours of sleep to avoid visiting him again. It's so confusing. I don't know whom, or what to follow. Sometimes, I wished I was my sister, who experiences little health problems, and doesn't really have to take multivitamins.

How does she do it? How does anyone who can cope up stress and pressure do it? I want to know.